..Schizophrenia..

Yerterday I got phone call from my mother. She worried about my brother. My brother seemed not in the good condition lately. For the past 2 years he has been consume some medicine from the psychiatrist . I still can cleary remember how he can survive from skizo. Yes, schizophrenia. 2010 was the tough year for our family. 

The symptoms were, my brother had no focus when we talking to him, didn't hear what we said, become introvert.. even to the family, become imsomniac, suddenly resigned from his job, always looked gloomy, and the most weird...he never laugh even he was watching comedian show at tv, he seemed busy with his mind, with his world.

My mother just cried and cried when she told me about my brother. My father got stress. My parents really dropped down. I was pregnant at that moment. We just thought that a bad soul was inserted to my brothers's body. We many times went to several people whose knew more about this matter. And did  Rukyah to several places as well. But no result.

He said that he can't control the voices around him. He heard many things, and that's why he can't focus when someone talked to him. So many voices, he said. Fortunally, he didn't scream like "madman".

Day by day, my brother just stayed at home. He become more introvert. If we talked to him, we will just found his flat reaction. But he can normally eat, drink, smoke and bath. I was very sad to see him like that. I didn't find my funny brother anymore. I lost him actually.

I tried to have a deeply conversation with him. And he said he don't want to be like this. He cried. He didn't mean to make my parents worried. We talked a lot at that night. And he decided to go to psychiatris. To make sure that this disorder wasnt by "jin".

After my brother handled by psychiatris, the condition getting better and better. He tried to fix his messy life before. He more calm, but talked active as well. He was trying so hard to find a new job. And he got it ! :))

Slowly but sure he proved that he can be like normal people. But the others side, he should consume some medicine continously. If one day he missed the medicine, the condition will be bad. Yes..he sooo depends on the medicine.

Moreover, the medicine weren't cheap at all. The generic medicine cannot do well for him. And I heard, for skizo should consume the medicine for the rest of their life :(

And yesterday, my mother called me that my brother didn't consume the medicine regulary, because of his work. He spent the night at the office, his work was high load. And nowadays, he start to smoke more. Actually he already stop smoke since the the psychiatris said that the medicine and cigarette weren't good combination for my brother's health.

And my parents just worried that he can relapse anytime. I just sad..really sad.  Is there any way for skizo except consume the medicine ? I dont want my brother relaps. I want him to know that my parents, me and my husband and especially raditya, really care about him. Yes we really do.

Not easy for us to face this reallity. It was so hard for my brother to survive, and the other skizo people as well. They can live normally. And it's not genetical illness. Please dont judge them as useless person. They just need love and support...

Please..dont say word "skizo" as a joke. You've never been in their shoes...